I am upset!

By how things goes.

I met with a crisis now. I am really disappointed of myself.

Why did all the good fathers die and leave us so fast??!! I am missing my daddy so much that sometimes i wish he could be right in front of me. I recalled the time that i neglected my dad shortly before he leave this world. I was remorseful... I am still upset.

Now i am thinking why some fathers who alwasy tend to abuse their kids, be it verbally or physically, tend to live longer... ! They deserve to be dead! How i wish i have a gun and just shoot them into their fucking pea brains!...

Curse those who disown their own children,own flesh and bones!

And Dear, sorry i am not there when you need me. Truly sorry :(
NO BOUNDARIES
KRIS ALLEN / ADAM LAMBERT

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries
One week just fly past and i feel a lot fortunate working in DBTA. But, also weird feeling about working there.

Firstly,

You will find yourself foreign in local. I am the only singaporean there. As in pure bred in Singapore.
I have colleagues coming from all around the world, literally. From the United States, Canada, down under australia, to the nearby ASEAN countries like Indonesia, Thailand, Vietnam and the popular Phillipines, where all fast drafting talents come from. My boss himself is a Japanese, growing up in Canada.

This is an Interior Design firm i am working in. But it feels like UNITED NATIONS CONGRESS OFFICE.

Secondly,

They will find you werid when you start staying OT. YES! they will look at you and ask you why you not going home after 7pm. When i said i want to finish my stuff, they will like, " errrr ok??..."

Thirdly,

My office has a story behind. IT IS BELIEVED TO BE HAUNTED.
YES....
I am speaking the truth.
Which i finally understand why my boss want us to go back at latest 8pm.


ION Orchard


VS..







Yas Hotel_Asymptote


Dialogue between two buildings....

ION: are you copying me?

YAS: Absolutely NO!... come on!

ION: It's weird. Our design came out 1st by our indigenious architects. How can you assume that you did not copy me?

YAS: No originality!... you are not creative at all!... LOSER!
ANGELS AND DEMONS



Angels and Demons, Science and Religion, Good and Evil...

Another Dan Brown's movie means another debate starts. Plot is somehow informative but still miss out big details from the book.

Like Da Vinci's code, the movie has its own interpretation from the book.

I think you should read the book la. . .


I think the story of wolverine's origin is full of action.

Full stop



Went to THE KANGXI EMPEROR exhibits at the Asian Civilisation Museum. I must say to kill time and making it educational, why not?

And NUS students have free entries to all museums in town!

The exhibits are really good and what fascinates me is those imperial painting, like the one you see above. Depicting himself 57 years old. This painting is actually about 4 metres high! Because the fact that Kangxi's imperial painter is actually a foreigner, the use of perspective drawings and shadows are clearly shown on the painting.

And the next thing is the imperial edict, that we normally tend to see them on movies. The imperial guards tolding a scroll, with the receiver kneeling down in reverence, listening to the emperor's order. But do you know the actual size is about A2 size in width but longer, about 2.5 metres???

I concluded that those scrolls shown in movies are bluff!
Today's outcome has finally put a stop to the 2 months of agony and frustration on the job hunting spree.

I finally secured a place at David B. Tokiwa Associate. Not some fancy office though, but enough for me to continue my design line.

Hope to learn new things this time around. I am super amateur and rusty when it comes to beds, curtain, coffee tables... All this while, i deal with display shelves, workstations, counter-tops. Not a big change from corporate to the kind of hospitality stuff but still, i don't mind learning new things again. More of a refresher course.

Dear, i am so sorry that i vent my frustration on you these few weeks. Thanks for being so patient with me.

Two long months??... who would spend two long months staring at the laptop, hoping a new email coming in?
Only idiots like me do that la!

Times are bad.

Really bad...

I guess this is so much i can ask for.
Am in a bitchy mood...

I HATE PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT THEY ARE VERY BORED AT WORK!
I super hate what is going on with my life now. Its not the desperate part for a vacation job.

I am seeing people applying the same company later than me and got it 1st! Sorry, no ill offences for any job goers. But i think the "only ladies get the job" thing, i must say that we guys have no fucking luck on job hunting!
Is it the economy or is it my portfolio?

I did not expected that job hunting this time is so much difficult. Went for 2 interviews already and they are so messed up.

The first interview is at IKEA, for a freelance basis application. I know these guys does residential desgin ( Hello, IKEA LEH! ) The interview is kinda weird as i was presenting my portfolio, ALL commercial and retails interior design, a handful of school works which i felt its a waste of space putting them. The boss replied and emphasised that they do a lot of residential design and planning and FEW office interiors.

" The application is open for a week and we will let you know then "

I walked off, knowing the low chances of it.

Then the next interview was really a good experience, i guess, even though they are not accepting me.

SCDA ARCHITECTS... !

I did not expect them to call me. Then i realised that i am not alone. Wendy and QingLing were selected for the interview. I don't see that as competition or something. At that point of time, i hoping all three of us will get in.

SCDA has nice office, but i have seen nicer!

Anyway, i was in meeting room and this senior associates attended me and look through my portfolio. He was really a nice person and bothers to listen to you. Seldom see people so attentive to your explanation.

THEN CHAN SOO KIAN CAME IN! SCDA BIG BIG BIG BOSS....

He self intro to me and shook hands with him. Haha...
And he went through my portfolio.
I would call that a privillege...

Then he realised that we are not year-out people and Chan was so surprised! His eyes really wide open...
I know chances are low again when he hinted wendy about their intention of hiring year out people instead.

In the first place, who would wanna have year out? Firstly, year out people was paid intern pay!... maybe lower. Finish the damn architecture course and earn more after you graduate! haha
I WANNA CONTINUE DESIGNING!


Watched two ridiculous reality shows on TV, without thinking about my design and stuffs. One is the PARIS HILTON'S MY NEW BFF. That was totally plastic!
Paris hilton is looking for a new best friend. And a few girls and some guys joined in to show their "sincerity" to Paris.
( Alamak! you mean she has no friends in her circle??!! )

Kinda like wayang to your sergeant major, kinda stuff. And this few "contestants" battle it out to impress Paris as much as they could to become a ultimate "friend" of Paris's

3 WORDS....WHAT THE FUCK??!!

Another show is the Channel 5's S FACTOR. watched it on sunday, despite the numerous criticisms on it. I had seen blogs that describe the bimbo and the ridiculous competition on the show. In fact, i totally agreed with the comments.

This episode is about TALENTS showcase. I don't know that doind anything can be considered a talent. Dancing blankly in the air, belly-bloating, tie cherry sticks with your mouth and making cocktails. I don't even enjoy watching it.

Next is getting two guys blindfolded and chatting with the girls. To prove the fact that guys don't only judge them by their looks. And there is this girl who said she is 9.5 out of 10 in her looks, just to give the poor blindfolded guy an illusion that she is that pretty!

SUPER BIG "HUH??!!"

What happen to reality shows lately? Where is Donald Trump??
Finally exam is over and year 3 is going to end, provided the fact that i won't get external crit next week. I am satisfied with the 2 papers i sat in and it does not matter anymore. I am going to have fun!

Job hunting is still on for me and this time, i think i just sit back and wait. Freelance works for me this holiday is so so unpredictable. My Youth olympic project is pushed back to August.

Thinking back of the year 3, i experienced my highest and lowest point in school. Perhaps the lowest point is how i dread going to ruzica's studio with numerous models and knowing that all your works are voided after few minutes of consultation. Unlike in Prof tse's studio, i have great tutor like "MR WOHA JUNIOR" ( You know who i am referring ). He has been a great help to me in my design and he pushes me to get better design.

Still stick to my motto, YOU DON'T NEED ANY FANCIFUL DESIGN TO WOW PEOPLE.
IT IS ALWAYS THE SIMPLE THINGS THAT ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL.





Can't help not to fall in love with this JAPANESE SHELL HOUSE project. The project has no wow factor and it just made up of very simple curves and its not even like the guggenheim shit at Bilbao. ( did i say shit?? )
I like how it terminates and dimishing into the ground, blending into the greenary. You know, blending into the landscape does not mean creating camouflage or something. This is the second house i like after Frank Lloyd Wright's fallingwater. OMG! fallingwater is so classic but nice.

I am upset!

By how things goes.

I met with a crisis now. I am really disappointed of myself.

Why did all the good fathers die and leave us so fast??!! I am missing my daddy so much that sometimes i wish he could be right in front of me. I recalled the time that i neglected my dad shortly before he leave this world. I was remorseful... I am still upset.

Now i am thinking why some fathers who alwasy tend to abuse their kids, be it verbally or physically, tend to live longer... ! They deserve to be dead! How i wish i have a gun and just shoot them into their fucking pea brains!...

Curse those who disown their own children,own flesh and bones!

And Dear, sorry i am not there when you need me. Truly sorry :(